Shots...

Last night I started my night time shots. Gonal F and HGH. I am not a big fan of either one. You have to mix both of them. It is just a big amount of meds that I have to inject into my tummy. So now we are up to a total of three shots a day. My tummy is starting to get little red marks on it again.

The HGH (Human Growth Hormone) is a new shot we are trying this time. This cycle we are trying three new things. 1) is HGH shot, 2)embryo glueing, 3) consecutive transfer. I hope it all works. I was willing to try anything Dr. Ahlering could offer. I have no regrets we have done everything that has been offered to us. I am praying it works. Aaaaahhhhh!! It is getting so close. I am so excited to think I could be, wait I will be pregnant by the middle of August. It is becoming very real.

Tomorrow is Chris and I 3 year anniversary. It has flown by. We have had so much fun growing together and becoming better people. I married by best friend in whole world. e means so much to me. On our anniversary every year we watch our video from the wedding and also the video my mother in law made us. We love seeing everything all over again. This year Chris has made reservations for us at the Mayo Hotel were our reception was. Three years ago it was not a hotel, but since then they have remodeled it and opened it into a hotel. I am so excited.

Over the weekend...

We went to a wedding in Edmond. Here are a few pictures. We had a blast. We were able to stay with Chris's brother Adam and his soon to be wife Crystal. So it was fun to get to spend some time with them also while we were there.




Chris and I

Crystal and I

Chris, me, Crystal, and Adam

Good News

Today I had an appointment and in my eyes it went good. I have 10 follicles. I am excited I have that many. My cyst is still there but Dr. N felt that it would not damage anything if we left it there. I was happy to hear that we would not be draining it today. That was a big relief.

On another note. My shots are going good so far. I stopped the BC last Sunday so... Yesterday my friend came to visit just as planned. I am so ready to go to St. Louis on the 25th for my ultrasound. I am ready for the next step. On Monday I start my night shots. That will be interesting.

This weekend Chris and I are going to a wedding in Edmond, OK. It is for a guy that Chris works with. I am really excitied because we also get to spend time with Chris's brother Adam and his soon to be wife Crystal. I love them both very much. I will post some pictures when we get back. Hope everyone has a good weekend.

I am starting to get nervous!!

Last time I was on here I had talked about there being a possibility that I would do another IVF cycle in June, well that was cancelled, because I have a cyst on my Left ovary that had not gone away. I also only produced 5 eggs that month. Dr. A thought it would be better for my to wait another month so maybe the cyst would go away and for my ovaries to take a break. So we rescheduled it for July.

So, that cyst is still there on my Left side. I am going to see Dr. N on July 15th for an ultrasound to see if it needs to be drained. I have never had that done before. I hope it won't hurt to bad. Then we leave July 25th for St. Louis I have an ultrasound appointment with Dr. A Monday morning then I find out when I go back for my egg retrieval.

I have not really wanted to talk about this IVF cycle. I guess it is because I knew the worst is really possible and I don't know if I can do this again not only emotionally, but financially also. It is so expensive and my insurance does not cover anything. I just want it to work so much and I pray so much that God will give us a baby. I know I will be okay if it does not work, but I would be so much better If it did. I feel that the reason why Chris are going through this is to make us stronger as a couple and God has a reason for everything.

Well, tomorrow is the big day.... I start my meds. I will for sure keep you posted...

I have been gone way to long....

We did our IVF in April. We had the egg retrieval done Friday April 9th at 1:00 in the afternoon. I don't remember much at all. Chris and I left to drive back home right after. We were half way home when Dr. Ahlering called to tell us that he was able to get 7 follicals which was not alot he said. I hopes that we have 1 or 2 that fertilize. When Chris got that news he was upset he did not tell me because I was still out of it. But while this conversation was going on I started to hear this loud noise like a semi was rush up on us. I looked in my back mirror and the tire on the passenger side in the back had blown. I started yelling at Chris to pull over. He pulled over and got out and changed it. Then we were on the way home again. On Saturday I was pretty sore, and really bloated. I felt like I had worked out my stomach muscles a whole lot. I did not feel good. Saturday after we got the call the we had 4 fertilize out of the 7 follicals. We were so excited. We were told we needed to be back in St. Louis Monday afternoon.

So.. we left Monday morning at 6:00 and made it to St. Louis by 12:00. hey called me right back at said that out of the 4 there was 2 that were the right size and Dr. A said that he wanted to implant 2 and possible freeze the others we agreed. We were so excited. I could not believe that I was going to be pregnant in a matter of seconds and have my little babies in MY belly. The process did not hurt at all it was really neat. Chris was there and got to see everything. They gave us a picture of our embryo's. It was all so amazing.

Then we got a call a few days later that 1 of the embryo's did not make it to day 6, but we were able to freeze 1 of them so that is still good. But now it was just the waiting process. We had to wait till April 20th to do the first blood test, then another on the 22nd.

April 20th came I was so nervous to found out if my little babies took or not. I did the blood test early that morning. It seemed like it took forever to get the results back. Finally I got the call it was NEGATIVE. My heart dropped. I started crying so hard. I did not know what to do. I could not believe it. I was told it still might be to early. Wait and see what happens on the 22nd it could still be positive. I took a deep breath told myself to calm down and get myself together, and still have faith God can do anything.

Thursday came way to slow. I went and had my blood drawn early that morning. I got the call on my lunch break. It was NEGATIVE... Yes that is what I said NEGATIVE. I was in shock. I still wanted to hope that it could be positive. We were so upset. We never thought it would not work.

We talked to Dr. A the next Tuesday he recommended us doing a whole new cylce of IVF not just implanting the frozen embryo. I asked why. And what would he do different? He said the reason why is so that we will hopefully be able to implant more than 1 embryo which would give us more of chance it would work he said. He stated that what he would do different is that we would wait until day 6 to implant, not day 3 which is what we did last time.

Chris and I talked it over since we really did not have to much time. Because he wanted to know by the time I started my cylce, which was going to be in a couple of days. This pas Monday I started my cycle. I called Dr. A office told them that we decided to do the whole cylce again. They stated it would be in June, and that I would start my meds May 19th, so early Birthday to me since my Birthday is May 22nd. Then we will be back in St. Louis in June. WOW, I cannot believe we are going to do this all over again. Pray that we have better results!!!!!!!!!!

Good News

This morning we had our first ultrasound with Dr. N. He informed us that we have 9 eggs. He said he would have liked to see 15 to 20, but we knew going into it that I would have half the amount most girls my age would have. He did say the ones that I have look good. They also did blood work I am guessing I will hear about that later. But anyways I am so happy about my 9 eggs. The time is getting closer. I am so excitied!!!!!

BEP Concert

This past weekend on Saturday I went to the Black Eyed Peas Concert with two of my best friends. We had a blast!!!! The concert was awesome. Thank you so much Melissa for inviting me to go with you. It was a much needed girls night.

Last Wednesday I started my shots and taking the pill. So far it is going good. Of course I don't like the shot, but it is not too bad. I definitely have to give it to myself, a coworker tried to do it the first time and there was no way. But anyways everything is going good. I have been really tired. But that is one of the side effects. I also stopped the birth control on Sunday. I am really not ready for that cycle to start it is going to be a big pain. This Thursday I go to see Dr. N. hope there is good news and everything looks good. He will do an ultrasound and do blood work. Hope everyone has a good week and I will post after the appointment to let you guys know how it goes.

IVF update

Last Tuesday I received my medication. It was a huge box by the way. It was a little overwhelming. By coordinator had called me the week before and went over everything with me so I would know what meds needed to be in the fridge and what did not. She is very helpful. Her name is Peggy. I love her. If I have any questions she always gets back with me that same day.

The big process starts this Wednesday the 17th. I am excited for it to finally be here. I have my calender of when I take what meds ready to go on the fridge. I can't believe that in less than a month I will be in St. Louis. We have an appt. with Dr. N. 3/25/10 for an ultrasound then we go back again 4/5/10 for another ultrasound and blood work. We leave 4/6/10 after we get off work to drive to St. Louis and we have an appt. the 7th with Dr. Ahlering and we go from there. I hope everyone has a great week. I will let you know how it goes on Wednesday.

Trip to Mississippi

This past weekend we went to Mississippi for Chris's grandma's birthday. We left on Thursday and got there Friday afternoon. I love going to Mississippi, it is so pretty. We had a lot of fun got to see lots of family that I have not seen in awhile. It was a very short trip though, we came home on Sunday. I am so glad we were able to go. I love all his family, they are all so caring. I can't wait till the next trip!!!

Update

Sorry it has been a while since I was on here last. I am not doing so good with this blog spot, I will get better. Recently Chris and I made our deposit to hold our date for the week of April the 5th. I am really excited, but nervous. I know there is a possibility it might not work, but I don't want to even think about what I would do if it does not work. I am trying to stay positive and only think good thoughts. Well enough with all of that.

This past weekend we celebrated two birthdays. My mother in laws and also one of our best friends Codie. One friday night we went Edmond to visit Chris brother and girlfriend and meet Chris's parents there to eat dinner. We had a blast. Chris and I ended up staying the night there with his brother. It was so nice to see them. On Saturday I met up with Melissa and we took Codie out to lunch and to get a pedicure for her birthday. Then we meet up with a bunch of our other friends for dinner at the Garlic Rose. At dinner I started to not feel so good. I did not really get to enjoy the meal. Chris and I went home as soon as we were done. Good thing we did because I got a stomach bug that is going around. So I did nothing the rest off the weekend. I am feeling better now thank goodness. Hope everyone has a great week.

In October...

Chris and I have been trying to have a baby for several months and in October I started noticing that my cycles was not regular. I called Dr. N office and his nurse told me to get an ovulation kit. I did that and it never showed I was ovulating. So, in November they had me come in and Dr. N did an ultrasound on the third day and it showed that I only had a total of seven eggs. He also did a lot of blood work. A week later we were back in again to go over blood results. Those showed that I am premenopausal. Which he stressed means that he does not know how much longer I will be producing eggs. Also I produce half the amount of eggs that I should at my age. In November we did an IUI, I had two eggs that were the right size so we were hoping it would work. We found out two weeks later it was negative. Our next step was to send Chris's goods off to Chicago to see if there was anything going on with his part. In the mean time Dr. N thought it would be best for me to have surgery for endometriosis. He said I had all the symptoms. So... in January I went in for the surgery. The day of Dr. N came in and told us the results of Chris's test, he stated that his morphology level is 5%. So, by now it feels that every time we saw Dr. N it was always something Which was good for a change YEAH!!

The next time we went to go see Dr. N we discussed that IVF would be our best opinion. He stated we still have half the chance that most couples our age because of the amount of eggs I produce. We have talked to Dr. Ahlering's office and we are set up to do IVF in April. The beginning of February we started the process. I am now on birth control and ready for the next step when the time comes.

Chris and I are both trying to stay positive about our situation, because there is really nothing we can do. God has a plan for everyone and I know in my heart he has a plan for us to have a child when the time is right. The reason I started this blog is that I feel the more people we have praying for us will only help.. That is why I want to share our story with anyone that is interested. Thank you for all the prayers.